Episode 172: Claiming Our Voices
With Guest Machan Taylor
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With Guest Machan Taylor
Before the stages and applause, there was a little girl trying to figure out where she belonged.
Singer, songwriter, educator, and author Machan Taylor joins Giving Pain Purpose to talk about identity, trauma, performance, and finding her way back to her own voice. She and Lyndsay explore the masks we wear to survive, the insecurity that can hide behind success, and how therapy, spirituality, and psychedelic-assisted work became part of Machan’s healing journey. This episode is about reclaiming your voice, making peace with your story, and finding the courage to live as yourself.
What happens when the voice that takes you to some of the world’s biggest stages is also the one you’re still learning to claim as your own?
Singer, songwriter, educator, and author Machan Taylor has spent a lifetime navigating the space between performance and identity. Born in post-war Japan to a Japanese mother and American father, Machan was uprooted at four years old and brought to New Jersey, leaving behind her language, family, culture, and the only home she knew. Years later, she would recognize that experience as an early trauma that quietly shaped her sense of belonging.
In this episode of Giving Pain Purpose, Machan and Lyndsay explore the complicated journey of finding your voice when so much of your life has been spent adapting, performing, and trying to figure out where you fit. Machan shares how music became both sanctuary and identity, eventually taking her to stages with artists including Pink Floyd, Sting, Foreigner, Pat Benatar, and George Benson, all while the woman behind the applause was still wrestling with insecurity, imposter syndrome, family trauma, and the feeling that she wasn’t enough.
They talk openly about addiction, abusive relationships, the masks we wear to survive, and the long, nonlinear work of healing. Machan also shares how therapy, Buddhism, meditation, and later psychedelic-assisted therapy helped her reconnect with parts of herself she had left behind, including the little girl who left Japan all those years ago.
At its core, this conversation is about more than a remarkable music career. It’s about stripping away the performance, making peace with every version of yourself, and finding the courage to tell your story—naked, out loud.
Episode Highlights:
(00:00) Introduction to Machon Taylor’s Journey
(02:53) From Japan to the World Stage
(09:51) Family Dynamics and Childhood Trauma
(13:24) Music as a Path to Belonging
(16:28) Touring with Major Artists and Internal Struggles
(19:08) Dealing with Substance Use and Self-Protection
(21:43) The Ongoing Search for Identity
(27:15) Healing Through Psychedelic Therapy
(35:49) Spiritual Practices and Full Circle
(39:41) The Power of Sharing Our Stories
(43:47) Final Reflections and Words of Encouragement
You don’t need to be loud to be unshakable.
Made for the people who carry strength without needing attention. The ones who keep showing up, keep growing, and let their actions do the talking.
LEAD QUIETLY (BUT LOUDLY TOO!)